Each week I answer a question here from my readers on my Psychic Medium MarVeena Facebook page.
This week Shanon writes:
I have been on a spiritual journey for the past few years; it started because I wanted to find my purpose in life and do something I am passionate about, what should I be doing instead of what I have been doing, something more meaningful where I am able to make a positive difference.
I’ve read books, seen psychics, had various types of readings, tried meditations (hard for me but I still work at it), do affirmations, dabbed into psychic development, career test, personality test, seen spiritual coaches and whatever else comes my way.
It is at least 7/8 years now and I am still searching for my purpose in life, I’m not sure what I am doing wrong or if the answer is there and I’m not seeing it. The readings, tests, numerology reports, and reiki sessions I have had usually always come back with mostly the same thing and do describe me pretty right on but for some reason I am still here doing the same thing and still feeling stuck on my path although I do feel that I have grown so much spiritually and have become a much better person and more enlightened through this journey so I am truly grateful for that, I now live in a place filled with more love and acceptance of myself and others and hold less fear and worry in which I have spent most of my life feeling.
I have always wished to have the gift that you have especially due to being told many times that I have “the gift” I just need to develop it. I want to be able to communicate with spirit and help others and I know we all have it in us but not all of us can or know how to tap into it or even want to and maybe because its not meant to be however most all of my reading with different psychics, my numerology, personality and career test always indicate or say something to the effect that I am a sensitive and very intuitive and I have also been told I should be a healer and work with my hands, but I have also been advised that the answer is within and I just need to open myself up to find it which is what I am trying to do with little success thus far.
I do know I am very sensitive to energy, my surroundings and am intuitive to some extent which is also indicated in my life path # and birthday.
How can I know if I am wasting my time thinking that this is something I should be doing as well as thinking that someone or something will give me the answers to what my purpose is as far as career and spiritual focus and if I this is my path how do I finally strengthen and develop what I already have?
One last note, I have once again over the past 2 months started seeing repeated numbers on a consistent basis that are indicating change, spiritual change and keeping the faith whiles the changes are occurring (I have the Angel numbers book by Doreen Virtue). I just turned 50 and do not want to continue going in circles searching, how can I retrieve the answers that are within me?
I can feel the frustration and pain in your post here. We are all multi-dimensional beings that are focusing through a physical body.
We have several different bodies that we need to feed & nourish. In some mystical paths, they call that feeding our hungers.
We think if we just feed our physical body all is good, but not so. Our emotional, mental and spiritual bodies hunger for nourishment too.
If you find some ways of feeding your self on those levels you will feel more contentment. Just like we feel better in our body when we feed our self healthy vibrant foods. We want to do take the idea of feeding vibrancy and wholesomeness to our self on the different levels of being.
Through meditation you will get some ideas of what your spirit hungers for. It is different for everyone. Mine hungers for nature, beauty, animals, love, stories, fun, friendship, art, being creative as a writer, blogger and painter.
The key is finding your balance. I would take the emphasis off “what am I supposed to do”. Place it on what does my soul hunger to do.
You might have to do a lot of soul searching through meditation to find your answers, it is worth the search.
The reason is you can’t touch the world with your true beauty when you have un-resolved issues. We all crave to create and make an act of beauty in this earth plane. You crave that as well, it is something that is very personal and intimate to each of us and can only come though our authentic self. You might need to re-claim your true self!
I included some links above for more ideas. I talked about recapitulation meditations in some of my previous E-zines. If you need more info let me know.
One thing that stands out to me is when we are moving through our Karmic pieces of business we sort have an underlying drive that leads from one thing to another. Then we turn a little towards Dharma were we don’t have so much we need to do. We often get a little lost, like a kid going away to school. “What do I do with my time”. Since we are used to being told the way to go, when and why. The thing about stepping into our Dharma is now we are determining our direction and what feels good to follow up with. So we have to put out the effort and start to experiment.
I hope this helped 🙂 Please let me know in the comments below your own ideas about this, and some ways to keep us moving forward! I love to hear from you all!!!
By the way, if you have questions for me. Please visit my Psychic Medium MarVeena page and leave them in the questions area.
I might pull your question for my next article.
(c) March 2014